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Have I Even Been Asleep

by Deer Anna

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island-ape An exceptional debut EP. Very much in the singer/songwriter tradition but with today's sound and feeling. Deer Anna has a very expressive voice and her music is modern and alive, her lyrics honest and emotional. All taken together, just simply fantastic! Favorite track: In The Clouds.
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1.
Dawn 03:57
We go to bed after sunset and I wake up during dawn Or have I even been asleep can’t remember what we‘ve done And the red and yellow light of the rising sun turns your face into gold Makes your eyes look like two diamonds reflecting the fire of your soul Oh, how I love to sit with you in the morning sun Oh, what an honour for me to hold you in my arms And when the lights begin to fade we drink a glass of wine Then maybe just another one and I let you finish mine Can you hear the wind that knocks on the door and begs us to let it in Can you see the little raindrops gathering on the window sill Oh, how I love to sit with you in the morning sun Oh, what an honour for me to hold you in my arms I wish I could wake up next to you Every day So glad that you finally came my way It feels like I met you long ago It’s like they say It sounds really cheesy but I guess that it’s ok Oh, how I love to sit with you in the morning sun Oh, what an honour for me to hold you in my arms Oh, how I love to sit with you in the morning sun Oh, what an honour for me to hold you in my arms
2.
Marks 03:18
I opened up my heart for you, told you everything I knew You sorted out what you could use and kept it all for you You did not care nor listen to what I was going through Maybe I am not worthy of it, there are bigger problems too And so I stopped to bother you Became your human shield Should manage just to deal with stuff that hurts me by myself You leave your marks on me And I unlearn to see Who I had been before I became your clone But being nothing is worse than being alone I tiptoed in your shadow through the halls of our school Just checking if my shadow had the same shape as you too And nobody would listen to me if I weren’t with you But does it even matter if the words they hear aren’t true You leave your marks on me And I unlearn to see Who I had been before I became your clone But being nothing is worse than being alone You leave your marks on me And I unlearn to see Who I had been before I became your clone But being nothing is worse than being alone
3.
Flowers on the carpet on your floor Your bedroom door locked from inside Flowers on the carpet on your floor The water of your eyes helps them grow every night That you cry in your sleep for help I can hear you at night Through my walls when you cry But when I see you there’s only dead silence I don't see you anymore Only the flowers on your floor That you take care of when you feel worse They get to see you when you cry Oh they see you all the time But flowers grow better outside Flowers on the carpet on your floor Sometimes the only life inside Flowers on the carpet on your floor When you badly suffer They grow and they thrive Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh Oh I can hear you at night Through my walls when you cry And when I see your red eyes It is no surprise Oh when I see you I don't see you anymore Only the flowers on your floor That you take care of when you feel worse They get to see you when you cry Oh they see you all the time But flowers grow better outside Oh I don't see you anymore Only the flowers on your floor That you take care of when you feel worse They get to see you when you cry Oh they see you all the time But flowers grow better outside Why don ́t you see me anymore I stand in front of your locked door And I beg you to let me help you But I can’t help you anymore You’re doing worse than before And the flowers on your floor are withered
4.
Hold your breath and hide your bitterness From everyone around Head in the clouds and show some happiness Have both feet on the ground Be the strong one, everytime Hold them in your arms Shut your mouth, don’t talk about yourself Don’t ask for help Head in the clouds Scream and shout No one around So just be loud Do it till it hurts, drown your inner words In alcohol and pain No path for you to take, no choice for you to make It’s their blood in your veins Head in the clouds Scream and shout No one around So just be loud Just be loud Just be loud Just be loud Just be loud, just be loud, Oh Oh Just be loud, just be loud, Oh Oh I’ll open the front door for you but you will have to walk out yourself Say what you always wanted to say without getting ignored They‘ll close the door behind you if you leave now there’ll be no coming back Tell them to fuck off right now and run away without a regret Head in the clouds Scream and shout No one around
5.
She’s sitting in a park in the sunshine Far away from home Alone with her thoughts Lights are shining through the windows Of the cathedral next to her Projecting colours everywhere And the sun on her face And the soothing calm around her Make her think about her life And she thinks... If it was the last chance to tell them About how I really feel And if it was the last chance to thank them For everything they’ve done Would it be just as hard Then she takes out a piece of paper and a pen Cause writing stuff down makes it easier Do you regret to keep your mouth shut from time to time Do you have things in life to ease your mind Oh could you promise to remember when you’re gone Or is it just too much to ask for And you think... If it was the last chance to tell them About how I really feel And if it was the last chance to thank them For everything they’ve done Would it be just as hard

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Hey, this is my debut EP. Hope you like it <3

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released February 18, 2022

WRITTEN BY Deer Anna
PRODUCED BY Ben Schadow
MASTERED BY Kai Blankenberg
PERFORMERS:
Deer Anna (Vocals, Guitar, Synthesizer, Percussion, Mandolin, Ukulele,
Melodica, Wine glass)
Ben Schadow (Synthesizer, Percussion)
Joel Fernandes (Guitar, Synthesizer, Backing Vocals, Tape Loop, Percussion)
Jonathan Riedel (Bass, Synthesizer, Backing Vocals, Acoustic Guitar,
Percussion)
Timon Schempp (Drums)
Friedel Viegener (Drums, Backing Vocals)
Paul Schubert (Cello)
Liv Andersson (Clapping)

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Deer Anna Hamburg, Germany

A scream doesn't always have to be loud. In the case of indie pop musician Deer Anna, it sounds soft, casual, and true. Sometimes I'm Dizzy When I Scream is the name of the artist’s debut album. And this dizziness, the giddiness and reeling set in when the panic attacks come, when depression takes over one's body. But also when beauty makes everything in you waver to the best of its ability. ... more

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